3 months of Self Revelations

It’s been 3 months that I have spent away from home or the country that I call home.

The 3 months have been a revelation in to my own self. I have figured out things about myself that I had never figured at home or for that matter even on campus (my longest time away from home).

I have realized what a freak I am. On seeing people here, interacting with them; my perspectives have changed yet again. I have realized some aspects of me that were hidden to me until now. Reminds me a little of the Johari window exercises we were made to endure in college.

I always thought I was a social person with my own frequent mood swings. Only on coming here have I realized that my social element is quite high. I enjoy spending time with friends, who doesn’t rite?

But I have also realized how much I hate being alone… loath it. Of course there are times when I need to be just with myself & no one else but these times are fewer by far.

Some other things that I realized are how much I love my mom’s food & Indian food in general. If you know me, you’ll say what about the times you were away from home earlier? Well, but I was still in India & some substitute of what my mom could cook better was readily available. Somehow here I realize the value of the food cooked with love.

The other day after one of my successful cooking experiments, while discussing it with folks back home my brother dear says “ but you were always a good cook” & I must add here that I was pleasantly surprised coz until then I had never realized that anything I did could remotely be called good.

Well, I don’t have a very high opinion of myself. Of course people say you are sweet, helpful etc etc.

But how many of them know the real me. Hell even I do not know the real me. I am still figuring things out as you probably noticed reading this little tirade of mine.

To quote a friend who was using this line for himself, I’ll say “I am my own worst critic”.

However, to return to the self revelations… I have realized that I have a bit of competitive streak with the firangs as they say. Be it competing with them on the walking speeds or attempting to stay fit (very far off for me). Also realized that this will only help me start, if I need to continue then I need a little …sorry a lot of push….

Be it checking to see if a friend exercised or not… or asking a friend to scold me if I overeat… asking another one to ensure I exercise...

The other thing that I realized is that I can practice restraint when it comes to sweets. And this for any foodie is a big deal. Yep I am big foodie & I mean big literally. :p

Signing off